Being sick in any way really, really sucks but interestingly enough, you DO get a new appreciation for how nice it is to feel good!
I have had trigeminal neuralgia for 2 years now and just got past my 4th and worst flare up yet, thanks to some amazing pharmacuticals. Not one to dwell too much on my own misery, I mostly just joke my way through it, trying not to let on more than I have to how miserable I am. Once it's gone, it's gone for a while so when it comes back, it's much akin to being slammed in the face with a sledgehammer.
There is this beautiful place though, somewhere between I hurt so bad I want to curl up and die and when I have forgotten it again until the next flare up. In this place, you really appreciate how good you feel, how spectacular it is not to hurt anymore.
I don't wish this on anyone, I don't want it to ever come back but maybe, just maybe, the bright light to come from it is this brief span of time that I really feel good without whining about all of life's other ills.
My glass is obnoxiously half-full, isn't it?
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